Sunday, December 16, 2007

Why do I feel so Incomplete, so held back in Life?


Because today I’m just the same old person as I was yesterday
Because I know I have not changed from any other day
Because, I am uncertain of myself, and insecure about my personal traits
Because at times I feel as if I was made of rock,
feeling unstoppable, as if I was an unbreakable diamond that remains heartless
Because I've been told that I will not achieve the things I hold at heart in life.
Because I feel that I can't commit to someone or something
I distance myself from people, and hide my emotions,
as if I pour them into a deep abyss, locked away from all prying eyes
Because I walk around this world feeling empty inside
like a dried up lake, slowly fading away loosing its beautiful colour
Because I am scared of what life will bring me in the future
Because I choose more to do in life, then my physical self lets me handle
Because I do not want to be left behind, to be the man who did nothing
I want to be spoken highly of, to be acknowledged and praised
I want to laugh, feel, and smile and not care who watches
at times I wish I was the sun, to be a positive element, very warming and loving
Because I hold myself back to meet my true potential,
How come strangers always say that there’s more to life then sitting back and just watching
Because I tend to be a dull figure, very abstract minded and at times disfigured
I look into the mirror but don't see my reflection, does this happen
Because I am unable to figure myself out
I feel lost, like I can't find my way back to my mothers comforting arms
Because I love my friends for they bring the best out of me,
For they make me feel like a pot of gold as if erupting with joy
Because I know who I can be and who I can’t
I walk around everyday seeing the society that has formed me,
Because I change my features so that I can survive the cliques
A chilling breeze blows on my face awaking me from my terrifying nightmare,
Because my heart starts to slowly revitalize myself and emotions,
As if I was a dead battery suddenly recharged back to new
Because even though I hit rough patches, I know that tomorrow is a new day
For new beginnings, for new revolutions for a brighter future
Because I know I’m not the same person that I was yesterday
Because I can finally see my reflection in the mirror as a new human being.

By: Julian Gerardi

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